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sigh... so many things happened recently that really made me felt screwed.. the so many camps i've been to, the many things i've done and whatever shit that happened to me.. seems like nothing except for just 10% interests me in life and enjoy them..
Well, like what people say: You create what's coming, when they come, you just have to handle them.
NCC day parade just passed.. good to see old friends, sure miss them lots.. and the cadets whom i saw them grow up lol.. one of the things that i enjoyed too is to see yx, my bloved god sis.. lol..though we didn;t chat much (was on duty) but least get to see her again after 3-4 months? hmmm.. hahaha another thing is my school got the best land and overall best unit in NCC..
Just realised that there's meaning to what you do when you do it for someone. outermost whatever you do, you may think that things that you do things for yourself, but it;s actually doing for someone or something which may benefit you along the way.
Example: You may claim to other people that i'm studying for my own good sake, for my bright future. but if u think further, dun u think that you are just studying for the sake of studying, in fact servent to books. to me it all seems to be like this. if you dun study, people will look down on you. if you study and get good results, people will definitely look up to you. and it does benefit you, apart from the knowledge you've learnt in the progres.. so true..
seem to be talking crap now.. there are so many things i wanna complain, but just can't bring myself to write it out. argh... like not even daring to tell a girl whom i/you like.. dot dot.. dunno....
just hate myself to the core always, for what i am, for losing the close contacti had with my friends.. is it really true that friends, they just come and go? some are very good to you initially, but as time progresses, they just show you attitude and treat you like dirt. almost a different person whom you used to know in the past.
Forgive me for those who are reading and concerned in the next thing i wanna say: after NCC day when i went off with some fellow clts back to amk on the bus, all except for me were taking pics and all, having fun.. well, and the thing is i'm the one taking the pics for ya guys. u all can blame me for being think skinned wanting to be part of the picture. to me it means more than that, i'm just non existant, like some other person whom u all make use of and throw it away. to some extent it may not be your fault because my character may contribute to what had happened. but i just couldn't take it down because you guys just leave me alone there, i was there wondering why i wasn;'t included, and why you guys asked me to take pics for u all. ppl like fazli and kang ping though they weren;t included coz they were tired and all.. but i'm just right in front of you guys.. sigh.. nvm... me acting up again as per normal.. no big deal...
wun be around very soon i guess...
maybe i would be surprised if youo guys actually read this segment and take it to heart. coz all that had happened between u and me dun seem to comply and tally with what i stated above. yah, i know it sux to e commented like this. i dunno how you guys feel towards me but this is just how i feel during that incident.
sigh... always pissing ppl off, myself also.. sian... =X just wish there would be better dchanges for me everywhere i go..
Well, like what people say: You create what's coming, when they come, you just have to handle them.
NCC day parade just passed.. good to see old friends, sure miss them lots.. and the cadets whom i saw them grow up lol.. one of the things that i enjoyed too is to see yx, my bloved god sis.. lol..though we didn;t chat much (was on duty) but least get to see her again after 3-4 months? hmmm.. hahaha another thing is my school got the best land and overall best unit in NCC..
Just realised that there's meaning to what you do when you do it for someone. outermost whatever you do, you may think that things that you do things for yourself, but it;s actually doing for someone or something which may benefit you along the way.
Example: You may claim to other people that i'm studying for my own good sake, for my bright future. but if u think further, dun u think that you are just studying for the sake of studying, in fact servent to books. to me it all seems to be like this. if you dun study, people will look down on you. if you study and get good results, people will definitely look up to you. and it does benefit you, apart from the knowledge you've learnt in the progres.. so true..
seem to be talking crap now.. there are so many things i wanna complain, but just can't bring myself to write it out. argh... like not even daring to tell a girl whom i/you like.. dot dot.. dunno....
just hate myself to the core always, for what i am, for losing the close contacti had with my friends.. is it really true that friends, they just come and go? some are very good to you initially, but as time progresses, they just show you attitude and treat you like dirt. almost a different person whom you used to know in the past.
Forgive me for those who are reading and concerned in the next thing i wanna say: after NCC day when i went off with some fellow clts back to amk on the bus, all except for me were taking pics and all, having fun.. well, and the thing is i'm the one taking the pics for ya guys. u all can blame me for being think skinned wanting to be part of the picture. to me it means more than that, i'm just non existant, like some other person whom u all make use of and throw it away. to some extent it may not be your fault because my character may contribute to what had happened. but i just couldn't take it down because you guys just leave me alone there, i was there wondering why i wasn;'t included, and why you guys asked me to take pics for u all. ppl like fazli and kang ping though they weren;t included coz they were tired and all.. but i'm just right in front of you guys.. sigh.. nvm... me acting up again as per normal.. no big deal...
wun be around very soon i guess...
maybe i would be surprised if youo guys actually read this segment and take it to heart. coz all that had happened between u and me dun seem to comply and tally with what i stated above. yah, i know it sux to e commented like this. i dunno how you guys feel towards me but this is just how i feel during that incident.
sigh... always pissing ppl off, myself also.. sian... =X just wish there would be better dchanges for me everywhere i go..
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