Listening to: Jiang Nara - Sweet Dreams
Dear.. if u r reading this, this post would be specially dedicated to you, and only you.
I still remember seeing your face for the first time, during our first FOC.. hahah.. during that time we didn't really know each other, even though we went through the ice-breakers and all. and merely had small chats when we just finished the night walk.. but i dunno how i was able to relate to you or to the rest of the group as we didn't see each other much and all. and somehow could still remember you kind of talk the most from the group? haha..
then comes the FOC outing, haha.. almost everyone was late for the outing and only you were one of the few who was early. forgive me for saying this but i only remembered you were from my group after thoughts for a few seconds. hehe.. but still had a great outing together. that time our bondage was merely freshie and GL, and maybe friends, so much of a difference.
and since then our meetings in school, coincidentally would merely be the occasional 'hi' and 'bye' we say to each other, which lasted for 1 or 2 months. and worse thing is, didn't really know you very well, and all i know was you were my freshie and that's that.. heeee..
then by chance i got to know Sheryl, who happened to be my god-sister. initially didn;t know you were her classmate until a later date, and later through her, Theodore. if i were to give thanks who made today possible, i must thank theodore the most coz it just seemed that he was one of the factors to make what we are today. like whenever there were studying sessions (still remember the common test and final exam period?), he would invite me over and that's when i got to know you better, a whole lot better, and the impression of you just gradually changes within me, as we met up with each other more.
then days and weeks went by, i felt closer to you, wanted to know you more rather than staying at status quo..
by then, i just fell in love with you, unknowingly. just like this. everytime in front of theodore, i would ask about your whearabouts, and wanted to know everything about you, and always looking forward to outings with you even though it may just be once or twice. and have always enjoyed the wonderful times spent with you, and just hope the day just wouldn't pass.
that lasted for quite some time although i didn't realise it until a later date, when the urge to know more gets stronger, and looking forward to talking to you or meeting you on outings seemed exceptionally strong too. till then i know the one i want to spend my life with is you. but i hid those feelings from you, as scenes of rejection, or fear of not being friends again surfaced in my minds every now and then.
until some time back in december when i felt that this wouldn't be a one-sided love, but dare not jump to conclusions. like the post i put up on 30th Dec about me liking someone. i found it weird why you didn't tag on my blog like you always did, espcially on advices or reminding me things. still, i held back my feelings for you.
till the time on 31st December 2004, near midnight. your msn nick seemed very depressing. tried very hard to cheer u up although i didn't know what was going on with you, or what caused you to be feeling so miserably.
then came new year's day, 1st jan 2005. i msged you in the morning about how you were feeling and all. then when it came to asking you again about the previous day's matter, as to why u were feeling sad and all, you didn't reply anymore. till then i got worried, if i had made you sad again.
however on the day itself, tables were turned, situation had changed. when you told me about your concerns, why you were feeling sad, and asking who i liked. i hesitated in answering you because i simply dun want things to turn bad.
but thanks to Him.. everything turned out well. and best of all, it was the best present we received from him for the new year, and had promised each other on so many things, to make things last and all.. so many wonderful memories. for once i felt a very strong sense of sweetened love from you, and only from you alone.
till now, although it has been only been one week since we were together, it was a memorable week with you. you have always being there for me, being sweet to me, let me feel loved and all.. thank you so much dear.. and letting me be there for you to cheer you up.
hopefully the days ahead of us would be bright, and we would be there for each other and memories shall last forever and ever.